Last year we were battening down the hatches. The notice was given that Super Storm Sandy was on her way. Did we listen? Some people did. But I did not. I was only back to work a few months from maternity leave. my baby was 8 months old and I was exhausted. My friend Rose was losing her battle with Breast cancer. My sister was celebrating her victory over the same disease. Who has time to look up?
A few days before the super storm I sat in the hospice with Rose, trying to make sense of a friendship and a life that was all too mysterious, very beautiful (with all its blemishes) but really all too short! It was hours before she would die, & I had a fury in me with her. She was dying and had not done the work of prepping her family. So much stood naked and bare the light of death, The skies were ominous. It's ok ! It's ok! Three hours after I left she died with Joel there as perplexed as I.
Joel and I meet for dinner frequently hands up & shrugging: who knows? Yet... I am left with this ponderous question: Am I living up to the challenge the opportunity that stands before me. What an opportunity this life offers me! We have the chance to shape it, to take big bites out of it, we have a chance to really Love one another and let people in to see us as we are. We can look out at this world with the eyes of a child like my 18 month old boy in utter wonder & exuberance, or we can look up! We can use our days to care for & nurture the world we have inherited.
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