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Hatred is an enemy
There is a great question I recently heard in a Zen discourse which left me feeling very awake.
How do you walk straight the mountain path which has 94 twists and turns? Now you know how much I love mountain paths simply for the twists and turns and I am constantly referring to how it’s a straight path up~ disregarding the twists and turns and sometimes the gentle subtle circle seemingly backward turns we take.
The hikes are so like the journey we are on to live life fully honestly and with enthusiasm. Unfortunately I find that I disregard the challenges until they are staring at me or have knocked me off my feet.
Self hate is one of those challenges. It is like a viper like a vicious silent creepy weed that chokes the life out of our love It starts off because of a sidelong glance or a disapproving head turn and then there is a whisper in my head about someone else; “that woman thinks she’s better than I am, she so racist, she is a you #!**#! But then initially it all gets even quieter because it becomes very personal; (She must know something about me, I must not measure up, I never get the good stuff). All lies & all untrue! Until finally, it is a cascading torrent of self hate and bad feelings which I am not quite sure ever goes away if left untended to. I ultimately do not want to see people and feel very sad. And it has all started because of one glance, one thought, one bit of hatred. These steps are helpful if we are awake. We are heading up the mountain however the straightness is relative right?
So how do we do it? Really the same way we walk up the mountain. We must take it one thought at a time one. When an injustice has been done to me I must stop and recognize I suffer because this seems not to be fair. I must own my own feelings and not allow the mind to take defense to find justifications I must sit with my feelings and cradle them, until I can remember that the greatness of God is much more immense then any injustice.
Hatred is an enemy which cannot be defeated by more hatred or more defenses.It must be disassembled with ardor and diligence and yes Love!
That is my hope today as I put yesterday behind me. God’s love is so immense& so amazing. Let my mind remember it, even when things do not go the way I expected.
3 comments:
So true! It takes the commitment of a true pilgrim So I am with you. Step by Step.
Hatred is an enemy, sometimes. There is some good hatred and some bad, I think. I hate my fat and I have to do something about it. Hatred is the only motivation to make me do something about it. I love to pontificate about it, but aggression has sometimes been one of my best friends. I am grateful for outlets like tennis and other sports that let you beat the "heck" out of somebody on the court, without hurting them, really. (just a thought)
I have to strongly disagree with you Jayne~ hatred is one of the reasons humanity falters. We can oppose and disagree but hatred takes us into a level of baseness that is destructive and delusional. Love your fat and trust me you will find beautiful cells replacing it on your hips. Hatred is like a darkness that cannot stand the light of love. Argue back i'd love to hear it!
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